讀毒杜獨。

不要每次說自己還沒有讀。

我都盡量沒說話了。

疼。

那一夜出門後回來，她變得很怪很怪
我想關心卻說不出口
壓抑不來，她崩潰似的哭了。

我看著她沒有任何的眼神交流
我想她到底受了什麼委屈 到底她怎麼了
她不說 我從來也沒問
她只是說了她的心好疼好疼。

我的心也跟著流淚……

電影夢裡

我的夢想就只是希望能夠勇敢的做夢……

電影后的夢裡卻沒有電影裡的精彩，反而卻是幕後的辛酸。如果劇情不是那樣，如果劇情再多些甜蜜，再多些驚險，再多些溫情……這些是觀眾在戲後的評語。不會有完美的講評，即使做的再完美，也逃不過人類的牙尖嘴利。或許換一個角度想一想那是對的。每一個決定都有意想不到的結果，人生的故事變那樣也不是個錯誤。勾心鬥角的一幕我想可以是電影裡的高潮。電影終究只是一部讓人看了過癮的戲。就好比如夢一般播出就忘了。我期待把每一個不可思議的夢境搬進舞台上，那種鬼馬的演技超乎月球的劇情，票房應該會吸引很多的年輕孩子。若我是導演。我應該會是一個差勁的導演。一直健忘、到處聽取很多的意見、我還是一樣。和現實一樣的差勁。不是每一個寫好的劇本都不會改變。一部戲，演員的突發狀況，整場戲就是個問題。就好比如人生得有B計劃，這個不行就得改變。變通。隨著環境變通，你就會改變，好的改變能夠有比預期的結局更完美。問什麼在計劃實行的時候改變主意，為什麼讓事情變得複雜，為什麼要有那樣的挑戰。這樣是為了什麼？無情、冷血是最好的代表。我也只是一個在夢裡的小眼睛。細細的觀察周圍發生的事。月亮裡的小兔子，你也看到了吧？兩個耳朵在看著我們。若畫面能夠停止那該多好。

我是導演如果讓我說全部停止，如果我有能力控制全部，如果我什麼都不聽，自己決定了算。那個時候我應該不會那麼辛苦。有時候那麼想，有時候希望就是如此。可是並非我想的那樣簡單。人生，挑戰。總是一堆的困難要過來打攪。為的是什麼？磨練自己？讓自己有適應各種情況的能力。有時候只要求一個美麗的夢，不求多。一次就夠。

有時候希望在夢裡能夠是很堅強又勇敢的。敢愛敢恨。我希望自己是壞人一次把所有的好人都殺掉！因為不是都說壞人很長命嗎？如果我是冷血動物，冷冰冰的皮膚。沒心沒肺沒心肝幾壞壞到極點。對不起我說。我只是講而已。

至於慾望又是另一回事。

電影裡的主角又笨又可憐。這是最近的形容詞。

The timing is His; the patience must be mine=)

在今天我給你寫了一封信。我想到那個時候你看到後會是喜悅的。=）

Aiesec Cititizen Global Programme - hmmm Self intro?!

This is my first youtube video. This is a simple video haha without any pro editting. I am applying for Aiesec Cititizen Global Programme in Taiwan. I hope that everything will be fine. I hope that i can get a good project in Taiwan. Do pray for me!

The word of God said all good thing comes from Him. In Him all promises are yes and amen!=)

Rain Rain

you are kind but you are not my kind.
Gogo away!

Campuslife the builders!

YA! We are finally completed our mission! Its hooray and happy!

Thank you for giving me such a wonderful experience that i never had before. Actually i thought that we are going to build the whole house. However and luckily we were not. Every Volunteer group will come to the habitat for humanity center to get the mission and follow what the instructions that given by them. They were so kind and friendly. They are Thomas and Mickeley. We were seperated in to two groups. one would do the painting while the other team would do the construction part. As i want to challenged my strength and i do not think that my sensitive nose can tahan with the paint smell. So i choose to give hands to the constructions department. The construction part was under Mickeley. We got the job from him. There were three parts to complete. There were floor, room and window. My team was making the cement of the window. For the first day we mixed the ingredients that follow the recipes. haha the secret recipe from the Sifu. So excited that we managed to make the cement by our own. For the first Time! yiiiii=) Something excited to say that i was the leader for the first day only haha. After we thought we have done our part  for the first day, abruptly a man who is the board of director of the habitat for humanity came and comment on our products. Looked at the window he said, tomorrow when i using my fingers to pull sure will ruin everything. Later he add on and said our ingredients was wrong we cannot mix it with stones. Ok! That was enough for today i said and we have to redo everything. That was really depressed when the word REDO came to our mind. OK well alright never mind.

When we reached in homestay the we went to the river which was 15 mins far away from the home stay. It's so enjoyed when you laying down in the river and somehow you will get flush away by the river. The life is so peaceful as you look at the sky, the forest and do not ever think about those stupid things. yeah thank you for you wonderful creation! the thing that i cant forget one was that there was no water supply while i was bathing. Seriously super scary when the bees fly in and kacau you! Oh no nightmare! After the super yummy dinner then we will have our games session prepared by KaiChen and YongSun also continue with the game by Melissa and Ethan. Somehow it was fun as you throw yourself into the games haha. I love to play running game. Remember the time when we played at the pacific haha super and unforgettable stupid experience. Ok and this was the end for the first day and i was preparing my game for the next day. 

Thats me with a big smile on face. can you see me?

It was a new morning and thank God i was still managed to wake up on time.All effort had to thank to my roomates! we got back to the same place to continue our mission. This time we all would be more careful while doing our work. I want to say the reason why i want to choose the window site because i thought i was easier so we could done earlier and get to help the other. But end up with no. We followed the new recipe from the board of director and sifu. Then we all very quickly to put cement at the window site. Thank you to our new leader on the second day. He is a gentleman and keep reminding us to drink water. Yeah the river is my motive to keep moving on under the hot sun. But this time i'm clever already i wore a cap and mask to avoid myself from expose under the super hot sun! Its happy to play in the river after so much tired hard work!=)

I was glad that i joined this programme. I straightaway say i want to go when i heard about this project. It is a opportunity given to us to bring love to the community. Well done guys! This programme really help to make campuslifers closer.  Thank you for the house owner for preparing us those delicious meal. Every hard work is all worth when you see the kids and her face smiling to you. Thank you Lord for using us to show love to the needy. We use our own hands to help them to build the habitat. We done all this things not by our own strength but is Him. He gives strength and power to us for doing all these things. With Him everything is possible. Thank you Lord.

你好

有時候什麼都可以問。
就是不要問，你好嗎
因為我不是很會回答.

不要。

不要 麻煩人 不要變成 累贅

我說 我什麼都不要不要了。

Good Friday and Good Night

I am so glad that God has using us to spread the seed to the others. Its such a blessing for us to received and sharing to each other. We enjoyed the food prepared the worship team, the games, the grouping sharing. thank you to Yansie, Jessica, Mandy, Jia en, Mermaid, Esther for preparing all these so well. By God everything is possible! we were managed to handle and organize our home-cell good Friday Oikos successfully. Thank you God for your mercy thank you for dying on the cross for us. There is no ticket to enter to your kingdom as Luke 11:10 says, For everyone who asks receives: he who seeks find; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

What is good friday? Good friday is about the day on which Jesus Christ was crucified on the cross for the sins of the world. Good friday isn't a happy day, but it's name is a reminder that humans can only be considered good because of what happened on that day. It's also a day of gratitude for the supreme sacrifice that he made. Not only today but everyday we have to give thanks to God.

yeah we are alive!

Between It's our honor to enjoy the super high class lunch prepared by Becca. We were all so blessed to enjoy all the expensive food. haha. She was a food engineering also she loves to be the interior designer for her house. Looks she said the template will change every four five months. Wow!